life story?
okay, so i saw a thread early this week about life stories, good to see some old pro's in the NA scene are successful, or are on the right track. it's all good everyone is this, and evereyone is that.. but i want to hear how everyone got there, struggles they had to endure.. ect ect... being one of the few gamers i know, i'm curious as to what other people had to go through.
so here it is, il start off pre highschool. i'm playing at the highest, absolute highest level of hockey i could possibly play, in 3-5 years, i could be drafted to the CHL(ohl, whl, qmjhl) but then highschool hit, and weirldly enough, i started playing crossfire. i became obsessed with it, and through my years of grade 9-11, i did not drink. i would ditch my friends to play video games.. i smoked a lot of weed and was towards being an outcast. i pushed away many people to play video games and smoke weed.
here i am, a completely capable kid, throwing it all away for video games and smoking dope. mind you, as anyone who was half popular in highschool realizes this is a time of "drinking" but not for me.. everFrag (original) was coming in full swing around grade 11, me and snipes would skip school and play with 3 players who were homeschooled(coda, torispelling and 2cute) it was rather weird. i enjoyed spending 14 hours a day talking with these guys then socializing with my real friend.
okay, grade 12 hits, i start drinking on the weekends with friends i've had since i was in preschool(same neighborhood, you know how it goes) this whole stage completly changes me. long story short, i cant smoke pot because it gives me terrible anxiety now, but i'm drinking!!!! so what's the big deal right? i skip out on graduation and prom (obviously went to prom party though nerds)
getting out of highschool was awesome, i got a summer job as a labourer with a decoratice concrete company, i gain 20 pounds, i'm not fat, but i'm solid from all the work(anyone who has worked concrete would understand) but here is where my life goes in to a downward spiral. (thought my life was ****ed above^^? think again) here i am, drinking 6-8 beer a night, as an 18 year old. ok whatever, but i'm doing it by myself while gaming.. then morning drinking came along. and i picked up smoking. summer out of highschool was terrible for me... i would shake if i didnt drink, couldnt concentrate. then an opportunity came along.. i got accepted to college to take plumbing/pipefitting!!!!!
best year of my life, college. 16 guys, same interests, 1 class. talk about a ****ing riot, just a bunch of hicks who wanted to drink beer, go mudding, and live life on the edge. picked up a little cocaine habit that lasted only a couple months thankfully.. i found a girlfriend, we ended up dating for 2 and a half years
after college i couldnt find a plumbing job so i went back to concrete, same company picked up a contract in the local potash mine, you dont know miserable when you're working 12-14 hour days UNDERGROUND and dont see the sun for 13 days.
this all ultimately led up to me and my girlfriend splitting up, i'm only mentioning this now, but when i started dating this girlfriend i developed serious anxiety problems, which i was medicated for. (currently off them)
worked at potash mine for the summer, spent this winter doing odd jobs just to get by, i'm currently working for one of the biggest oil refinerys in north america doing exterior maintenance, barley drinking because i cant stand socializing with more then 1 person at a time.
if you read, id like some input and maybe a little bit about yourselves? i'd enjoy seeing how competitive gaming affected other people, as i know i pushed away A LOT of people in the process.
thanks guys, matt
so here it is, il start off pre highschool. i'm playing at the highest, absolute highest level of hockey i could possibly play, in 3-5 years, i could be drafted to the CHL(ohl, whl, qmjhl) but then highschool hit, and weirldly enough, i started playing crossfire. i became obsessed with it, and through my years of grade 9-11, i did not drink. i would ditch my friends to play video games.. i smoked a lot of weed and was towards being an outcast. i pushed away many people to play video games and smoke weed.
here i am, a completely capable kid, throwing it all away for video games and smoking dope. mind you, as anyone who was half popular in highschool realizes this is a time of "drinking" but not for me.. everFrag (original) was coming in full swing around grade 11, me and snipes would skip school and play with 3 players who were homeschooled(coda, torispelling and 2cute) it was rather weird. i enjoyed spending 14 hours a day talking with these guys then socializing with my real friend.
okay, grade 12 hits, i start drinking on the weekends with friends i've had since i was in preschool(same neighborhood, you know how it goes) this whole stage completly changes me. long story short, i cant smoke pot because it gives me terrible anxiety now, but i'm drinking!!!! so what's the big deal right? i skip out on graduation and prom (obviously went to prom party though nerds)
getting out of highschool was awesome, i got a summer job as a labourer with a decoratice concrete company, i gain 20 pounds, i'm not fat, but i'm solid from all the work(anyone who has worked concrete would understand) but here is where my life goes in to a downward spiral. (thought my life was ****ed above^^? think again) here i am, drinking 6-8 beer a night, as an 18 year old. ok whatever, but i'm doing it by myself while gaming.. then morning drinking came along. and i picked up smoking. summer out of highschool was terrible for me... i would shake if i didnt drink, couldnt concentrate. then an opportunity came along.. i got accepted to college to take plumbing/pipefitting!!!!!
best year of my life, college. 16 guys, same interests, 1 class. talk about a ****ing riot, just a bunch of hicks who wanted to drink beer, go mudding, and live life on the edge. picked up a little cocaine habit that lasted only a couple months thankfully.. i found a girlfriend, we ended up dating for 2 and a half years
after college i couldnt find a plumbing job so i went back to concrete, same company picked up a contract in the local potash mine, you dont know miserable when you're working 12-14 hour days UNDERGROUND and dont see the sun for 13 days.
this all ultimately led up to me and my girlfriend splitting up, i'm only mentioning this now, but when i started dating this girlfriend i developed serious anxiety problems, which i was medicated for. (currently off them)
worked at potash mine for the summer, spent this winter doing odd jobs just to get by, i'm currently working for one of the biggest oil refinerys in north america doing exterior maintenance, barley drinking because i cant stand socializing with more then 1 person at a time.
if you read, id like some input and maybe a little bit about yourselves? i'd enjoy seeing how competitive gaming affected other people, as i know i pushed away A LOT of people in the process.
thanks guys, matt
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my gpa was a 1.7 in freshman year because i thought being cool was good now im a sophmore and its a 2.3 for the first semester of my sophomore not including my semester which will boost my gpa up . moral of the story get a reality check like i did and get an education before its too late and go to college and make alot of money . i rather work a good job then spend 14 hours making mininmum wage.
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Ever since I was like 5 I would play fps games like UT 1999, Enemy Territory, etc, but in the process of moving, the cd's broke (thanks mover people) so when I moved into a new house I searched 'free shooter games' and saw this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B8KFZeHPuMk
Edit: not much happened in life yet (im 15)
but cf slightly affects my grades if anything -
joonLLLLLLL wrote: »not much to post as a highschooler but;
recently got hired at mcdonalds, and enjoying the minimum wage im making as a highschooler (lol)
went from a 2.0gpa to a 3.5-4.0 after some **** hit the fan, but it's all good now
You can talk about how greasy you are -
Had an amazing childhood.
But then.....
Got my first computer at age 13, the rest was history:
-> Goofing off in F2P FPS games.
-> Trolling nerds on forums.
-> Jacking off daily.
By age 16, my dopamine was sapped. I was a walking zombie. Needles to say I needed change so I adopted the gym-tan-laundry lifestyle. Benefits: Better looking, more puss, Cons: Became more insecure then I already was.
Money wise as of 2015: No issues. Have more in the bank than the majority in my age group.
It's not a "life story" though. You can't ask people for life stories on a forum filled with young buffoons. -
TASTYLIMES wrote: »Had an amazing childhood.
But then.....
Got my first computer at age 13, the rest was history:
-> Goofing off in F2P FPS games.
-> Trolling nerds on forums.
-> Jacking off daily.
By age 16, my dopamine was sapped. I was a walking zombie. Needles to say I needed change so I adopted the gym-tan-laundry lifestyle. Benefits: Better looking, more puss, Cons: Became more insecure then I already was.
Money wise as of 2015: No issues. Have more in the bank than the majority in my age group.
It's not a "life story" though. You can't ask people for life stories on a forum filled with young buffoons.
Insecure, sounds beta -
black0uttttt wrote: »i was more wondering if gaming has affected other peoples lives.
i truly wish anyone in the age of 16-18 realizes they could have a productive hobby and live a better life
Gaming can be a pretty productive hobby, most people have to spend thousands of dollars a year on their hobby, whereas with gaming some of us are making thousands of dollars by doing what we find fun. -
I started at the home of a friend. I hated games, but met CS. Betting agent who killed less had to eat a strong pepper. Then they told me the CF , in October 2009 I started playing CF. Then go to Lan House every day to play , even those who in 2012 bought my PC. And today home game , I have another account name -729.83.? / During the year 2013 I played almost 350 hours per month, Good Times. I get sick of the account that is Colonel 3 , and now created this I will start all over again.
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I'm glad you took the time to share matt.
oLogic, I don't deny that there's money to be made by playing video/computer games (after all, CF is ranked 14th as a money maker in the world), but if you compare the amount of people who play professionally and make even a couple hundred bucks, it's something like 0.0001% of players. Plus, as ex-professionals have reported, playing online games professionally and leading a balanced life is really tough because of the competition. Not saying it's impossible to do, but it's incredibly difficult.
I started playing in April 2010, at the end of my freshman year in highschool. For a year or so, it was just a fun past-time that I would do when bored. Soon after that though, I really started to get hooked. I loved the clans I was in, and talking with people from all over the world. I was a rather nerdy kid, but I managed to stay in fairly good shape, and even applied for the naval academy out of high school (didnt work out). I only had a handful of friends, but I was ok with that- from a very young age, Ive had a tendency to be shy and awkward around new people.
I went to a private high school, and it was probably the only reason I did well in school. My entire school had about 80ish kids in it. Anyway, I managed to get into college program I wanted (URI), and I thought I had it made.
I started smoking weed at the end of highschool, and that habit stayed with me for my first 2 years in college, where I currently am. Like you, I eventually had to stop because I would get too paranoid and couldn't function socially around other people. Playing Crossfire high was the best though- strangely enough, I thought better about the game, in terms of strategy and how players move around the maps. I also developed a habit of blacking out every time I drank, something which I hadn't really done in high school (I didn't drink much then).
I played CF pretty much every day at that point, and usually for a couple hours at a time. My roommate at the time didnt understand why I was so obsessed, and honestly, I didn't really know why either. I guess it was the fact that this was one thing that I was actually good at, where I was valued for my skills. Pretty soon, I was skipping classes to play CF, or catching up on sleep since I would go to bed at 2-4 am. Btw, I was (and still am) double majoring in mechanical engineering and German. I needed all the extra time I could get to study, but I just ignored it.
Anyway, after freshman year I was on academic probation with a gpa of 1.9 . My family almost took me out of school, but I couldn't bear the idea of living at home again (family problems) so I managed to convince them to let me stay. At this point, I knew I was addicted to CF, and to anyone who thinks you can't get actually addicted to computer games, I'll tell you to check out what google has to say on video game addictions. It's similar to the addiction people get from watching p0rn. There's more research being done now but often it's marked off as "anti-social behavior/tendencies". To stop myself from playing, I would uninstall CF, because I knew I wouldn't sit around for 2 hours for it to reload, so that bought me some study time. It was so sad- as soon as it uninstalled, I remember feeling this tightness in my chest. The best way I can describe it is that it felt like I had lost a close friend, and didn't have any bearings or ideas of what to do with myself. All for a computer program that I could access whenever I wanted.
Halfway through my sophomore year in college, I went to see a therapist, because I was getting really depressed about my current situation, with the grades and social life and things like that. I should also mention that I was eating very little- I didn't like going to the dining hall because it was always packed with people, and I'd be eating alone every day. The therapist sort of helped a little- I managed to go for a few weeks without playing. I started getting back into a more social life with people on campus, and that helped distract me. It was about then that I went from smoking dabs every other day to quitting weed cold-turkey. I took a picture of myself that day- I was 5'10'' and weighed about 140 lbs. If I took a big breath you could easily count all my ribs ^_^'.
I'll just fast forward to now, cuz my main point in all this is that if you're in a similar spot, there's hope. I've been going to the gym for about 6 months now, and have really started to enjoy it. I've bulked up a good amount, and that's definitely helped my self confidence. I'm taking a summer class to catch up on some of the classes I failed freshman year (Calc 2 was invented by satan), and working at a machine shop making precision parts for all kinds of things. I've joined some clubs on campus, including an acapella group (cuz I'm cool like that lol). I took about 4-5 months off of Crossfire, and although it's summer and I have more time to play now, it doesn't have the same grip on me that it once had.
The way I turned myself around was a mix of being so tired with the way my life was, a desire to control my life, and a vision of what I wanted my life to be. If you want something, you have to take a step towards it today. Every day you wait is a day less that you have to experience all the things you want before they put you in a box and cover you with dirt (or burn you up, whatever you prefer). That's kind of what I realized that day, and it was almost a do-or-die thing. Either I was going to accept that I was going to muddle through life doing nothing and being miserable, or I was gonna grab life by the balls and make myself happy.
Just a sidenote- that last comment about being happy was something I had the hardest time accepting, because while I was depressed honestly believed some people were just born to not be happy, and I was one of them. Depressed you is usually wrong about a lot of things
I grew up in a religious family as well, and the times where I was most unhappy was when I wasn't doing anything with that. No Danah, I'm not trying to shove my religion down your throat
I'm saying that it worked very well. Anyway, this isn't the right thread for the subject.
Job-wise, I got pretty lucky. I started working part time as a sophomore in high school at an indoor rock climbing gym; my family knew the owners. I worked there for a few years, and later ended up working at a machine shop over the summer (which is what I do now). There too, I got really lucky- my next door neighbor is the GM of the factory, and he offered to take me on when he learned I was studying mechanical engineering. I don't see sunlight either until late afternoons, cuz my shifts start real early, but the pay is good, and the people are chill.
So yeah..."story of my life"
edit O_O i went off on that lol -
Nice essay, but who the duck are you?I'm glad you took the time to share matt.
oLogic, I don't deny that there's money to be made by playing video/computer games (after all, CF is ranked 14th as a money maker in the world), but if you compare the amount of people who play professionally and make even a couple hundred bucks, it's something like 0.0001% of players. Plus, as ex-professionals have reported, playing online games professionally and leading a balanced life is really tough because of the competition. Not saying it's impossible to do, but it's incredibly difficult.
I started playing in April 2010, at the end of my freshman year in highschool. For a year or so, it was just a fun past-time that I would do when bored. Soon after that though, I really started to get hooked. I loved the clans I was in, and talking with people from all over the world. I was a rather nerdy kid, but I managed to stay in fairly good shape, and even applied for the naval academy out of high school (didnt work out). I only had a handful of friends, but I was ok with that- from a very young age, Ive had a tendency to be shy and awkward around new people.
I went to a private high school, and it was probably the only reason I did well in school. My entire school had about 80ish kids in it. Anyway, I managed to get into college program I wanted (URI), and I thought I had it made.
I started smoking weed at the end of highschool, and that habit stayed with me for my first 2 years in college, where I currently am. Like you, I eventually had to stop because I would get too paranoid and couldn't function socially around other people. Playing Crossfire high was the best though- strangely enough, I thought better about the game, in terms of strategy and how players move around the maps. I also developed a habit of blacking out every time I drank, something which I hadn't really done in high school (I didn't drink much then).
I played CF pretty much every day at that point, and usually for a couple hours at a time. My roommate at the time didnt understand why I was so obsessed, and honestly, I didn't really know why either. I guess it was the fact that this was one thing that I was actually good at, where I was valued for my skills. Pretty soon, I was skipping classes to play CF, or catching up on sleep since I would go to bed at 2-4 am. Btw, I was (and still am) double majoring in mechanical engineering and German. I needed all the extra time I could get to study, but I just ignored it.
Anyway, after freshman year I was on academic probation with a gpa of 1.9 . My family almost took me out of school, but I couldn't bear the idea of living at home again (family problems) so I managed to convince them to let me stay. At this point, I knew I was addicted to CF, and to anyone who thinks you can't get actually addicted to computer games, I'll tell you to check out what google has to say on video game addictions. It's similar to the addiction people get from watching p0rn. There's more research being done now but often it's marked off as "anti-social behavior/tendencies". To stop myself from playing, I would uninstall CF, because I knew I wouldn't sit around for 2 hours for it to reload, so that bought me some study time. It was so sad- as soon as it uninstalled, I remember feeling this tightness in my chest. The best way I can describe it is that it felt like I had lost a close friend, and didn't have any bearings or ideas of what to do with myself. All for a computer program that I could access whenever I wanted.
Halfway through my sophomore year in college, I went to see a therapist, because I was getting really depressed about my current situation, with the grades and social life and things like that. I should also mention that I was eating very little- I didn't like going to the dining hall because it was always packed with people, and I'd be eating alone every day. The therapist sort of helped a little- I managed to go for a few weeks without playing. I started getting back into a more social life with people on campus, and that helped distract me. It was about then that I went from smoking dabs every other day to quitting weed cold-turkey. I took a picture of myself that day- I was 5'10'' and weighed about 140 lbs. If I took a big breath you could easily count all my ribs ^_^'.
I'll just fast forward to now, cuz my main point in all this is that if you're in a similar spot, there's hope. I've been going to the gym for about 6 months now, and have really started to enjoy it. I've bulked up a good amount, and that's definitely helped my self confidence. I'm taking a summer class to catch up on some of the classes I failed freshman year (Calc 2 was invented by satan), and working at a machine shop making precision parts for all kinds of things. I've joined some clubs on campus, including an acapella group (cuz I'm cool like that lol). I took about 4-5 months off of Crossfire, and although it's summer and I have more time to play now, it doesn't have the same grip on me that it once had.
The way I turned myself around was a mix of being so tired with the way my life was, a desire to control my life, and a vision of what I wanted my life to be. If you want something, you have to take a step towards it today. Every day you wait is a day less that you have to experience all the things you want before they put you in a box and cover you with dirt (or burn you up, whatever you prefer). That's kind of what I realized that day, and it was almost a do-or-die thing. Either I was going to accept that I was going to muddle through life doing nothing and being miserable, or I was gonna grab life by the balls and make myself happy.
Just a sidenote- that last comment about being happy was something I had the hardest time accepting, because while I was depressed honestly believed some people were just born to not be happy, and I was one of them. Depressed you is usually wrong about a lot of things
I grew up in a religious family as well, and the times where I was most unhappy was when I wasn't doing anything with that. No Danah, I'm not trying to shove my religion down your throat I'm saying that it worked very well. Anyway, this isn't the right thread for the subject.
Job-wise, I got pretty lucky. I started working part time as a sophomore in high school at an indoor rock climbing gym; my family knew the owners. I worked there for a few years, and later ended up working at a machine shop over the summer (which is what I do now). There too, I got really lucky- my next door neighbor is the GM of the factory, and he offered to take me on when he learned I was studying mechanical engineering. I don't see sunlight either until late afternoons, cuz my shifts start real early, but the pay is good, and the people are chill.
So yeah..."story of my life"
edit O_O i went off on that lol -
I'm glad you took the time to share matt.
oLogic, I don't deny that there's money to be made by playing video/computer games (after all, CF is ranked 14th as a money maker in the world), but if you compare the amount of people who play professionally and make even a couple hundred bucks, it's something like 0.0001% of players. Plus, as ex-professionals have reported, playing online games professionally and leading a balanced life is really tough because of the competition. Not saying it's impossible to do, but it's incredibly difficult.
I started playing in April 2010, at the end of my freshman year in highschool. For a year or so, it was just a fun past-time that I would do when bored. Soon after that though, I really started to get hooked. I loved the clans I was in, and talking with people from all over the world. I was a rather nerdy kid, but I managed to stay in fairly good shape, and even applied for the naval academy out of high school (didnt work out). I only had a handful of friends, but I was ok with that- from a very young age, Ive had a tendency to be shy and awkward around new people.
I went to a private high school, and it was probably the only reason I did well in school. My entire school had about 80ish kids in it. Anyway, I managed to get into college program I wanted (URI), and I thought I had it made.
I started smoking weed at the end of highschool, and that habit stayed with me for my first 2 years in college, where I currently am. Like you, I eventually had to stop because I would get too paranoid and couldn't function socially around other people. Playing Crossfire high was the best though- strangely enough, I thought better about the game, in terms of strategy and how players move around the maps. I also developed a habit of blacking out every time I drank, something which I hadn't really done in high school (I didn't drink much then).
I played CF pretty much every day at that point, and usually for a couple hours at a time. My roommate at the time didnt understand why I was so obsessed, and honestly, I didn't really know why either. I guess it was the fact that this was one thing that I was actually good at, where I was valued for my skills. Pretty soon, I was skipping classes to play CF, or catching up on sleep since I would go to bed at 2-4 am. Btw, I was (and still am) double majoring in mechanical engineering and German. I needed all the extra time I could get to study, but I just ignored it.
Anyway, after freshman year I was on academic probation with a gpa of 1.9 . My family almost took me out of school, but I couldn't bear the idea of living at home again (family problems) so I managed to convince them to let me stay. At this point, I knew I was addicted to CF, and to anyone who thinks you can't get actually addicted to computer games, I'll tell you to check out what google has to say on video game addictions. It's similar to the addiction people get from watching p0rn. There's more research being done now but often it's marked off as "anti-social behavior/tendencies". To stop myself from playing, I would uninstall CF, because I knew I wouldn't sit around for 2 hours for it to reload, so that bought me some study time. It was so sad- as soon as it uninstalled, I remember feeling this tightness in my chest. The best way I can describe it is that it felt like I had lost a close friend, and didn't have any bearings or ideas of what to do with myself. All for a computer program that I could access whenever I wanted.
Halfway through my sophomore year in college, I went to see a therapist, because I was getting really depressed about my current situation, with the grades and social life and things like that. I should also mention that I was eating very little- I didn't like going to the dining hall because it was always packed with people, and I'd be eating alone every day. The therapist sort of helped a little- I managed to go for a few weeks without playing. I started getting back into a more social life with people on campus, and that helped distract me. It was about then that I went from smoking dabs every other day to quitting weed cold-turkey. I took a picture of myself that day- I was 5'10'' and weighed about 140 lbs. If I took a big breath you could easily count all my ribs ^_^'.
I'll just fast forward to now, cuz my main point in all this is that if you're in a similar spot, there's hope. I've been going to the gym for about 6 months now, and have really started to enjoy it. I've bulked up a good amount, and that's definitely helped my self confidence. I'm taking a summer class to catch up on some of the classes I failed freshman year (Calc 2 was invented by satan), and working at a machine shop making precision parts for all kinds of things. I've joined some clubs on campus, including an acapella group (cuz I'm cool like that lol). I took about 4-5 months off of Crossfire, and although it's summer and I have more time to play now, it doesn't have the same grip on me that it once had.
The way I turned myself around was a mix of being so tired with the way my life was, a desire to control my life, and a vision of what I wanted my life to be. If you want something, you have to take a step towards it today. Every day you wait is a day less that you have to experience all the things you want before they put you in a box and cover you with dirt (or burn you up, whatever you prefer). That's kind of what I realized that day, and it was almost a do-or-die thing. Either I was going to accept that I was going to muddle through life doing nothing and being miserable, or I was gonna grab life by the balls and make myself happy.
Just a sidenote- that last comment about being happy was something I had the hardest time accepting, because while I was depressed honestly believed some people were just born to not be happy, and I was one of them. Depressed you is usually wrong about a lot of things
I grew up in a religious family as well, and the times where I was most unhappy was when I wasn't doing anything with that. No Danah, I'm not trying to shove my religion down your throat I'm saying that it worked very well. Anyway, this isn't the right thread for the subject.
Job-wise, I got pretty lucky. I started working part time as a sophomore in high school at an indoor rock climbing gym; my family knew the owners. I worked there for a few years, and later ended up working at a machine shop over the summer (which is what I do now). There too, I got really lucky- my next door neighbor is the GM of the factory, and he offered to take me on when he learned I was studying mechanical engineering. I don't see sunlight either until late afternoons, cuz my shifts start real early, but the pay is good, and the people are chill.
So yeah..."story of my life"
edit O_O i went off on that lol
i thought this would be necessary... i had it in my files, I've always wanted to use it..
not trying to be offensive... -
oh boy let's try this
I started out playing in early 2009, which was 6th grade for me iirc. An Asian friend of mine introduced it to me at a party at his house one night, and I actually didn't quite like the idea of PC games. I was an xbox360/ps2 player at the time, and loved games like CoD. That summer my xbox broke, and I googled free online games like CoD. I came across a CF youtube video, and remembered it from when I tried it at my friend's house. I downloaded it, and started my CF life.
Initially, I would only play around an hour or so a day of TDM, switching off every 3rd death with my irl friend haha. Obviously I was a f2p player seeing as I was like 13, but I had a ton of fun playing with just an M4 lol. A year or so passes by, and I start playing Ghost Mode. I also start playing this game around 5 hours a day, because I was having so much fun. I played with IRL friends, and also made genuine friends with the people in my clans and what not. Hell, I even still talk to some of them today. In GM, My IRL friends and I led a pretty successful clan, which was very fun.
Then starts 7th grade, along with a lovely Foreign Language class. I started to do really awful in it, seeing as all I would do is think about CF. I ended up getting a D in Spanish, and even though I had A's in all my other classes, my parents flipped out and wouldn't let me play games until my grade was up. I never got it up that year, so I spent the whole year playing CF on my laptop whenever my parents weren't home. I didn't play too much that summer because I was used to only being able to get in ~30 minutes a day, but I still played quite a bit. I got pretty good at GM, and was one of the few people in Pan[TH]erS (Like the Hammertime of GM at that point in time). This was the high-point of having fun in cf for me. People would ask me daily for GM 1v1s and tryouts because they thought I was so good, and I loved it. All this time I had only been playing on a 20fps laptop as well, haha.
One of my IRL friends then convinced me to start playing SnD clan wars that summer, and we had a lot of fun making/joining clans and doing that. Then came along Freshman year, and I started to play SnD CF a lot more. I was getting up hours before school started (my parents were always gone in the early mornings) just to play cf. Because I didn't have a lot of time after school (I was a wrestler and had 3 hour practices 6 days a week), I would not do any homework/studying when I got home, and just play CF with friends. my grades suffered, and my gpa that year tanked to a 2.0
Sophomore year of highschool comes along, and it was pretty easy. I had a lot of study halls, so I did my homework then and just played CF when I got home. I stopped waking up early to play games, but would still spend all my free time after school to play. My IRL friends moved on from CF to League of Legends, but I kept playing CF. I started playing competitive this year by stumbling across a team for wcg. We placed fourth and got invited to the nationals lan in NYC, but my teammates couldn't pay their way to the lan. I didn't really care, I just loved competing. Come 6 months of playing with snitchez/chriss/rain/hyska/hose/hwg boys, the FG LAN was announced. I really wanted to play at this and do well, so I started trying to get better at CF. I watched as old scrim/match videos as I could find to try and get better. I developed quite the gamesense, and made a team with Reid/x0tek for the FG LAN. At this time, we picked up xfam0usx and wizdom, and wanted to get 15oL to go to the lan with us. Famous ended up not being able to go and reid disappeared like two weeks before the lan, so I joined eHostage ~7 days before FG LAN. We went to Toronto together, and it was amazing. Everyone in my family thought I was crazy traveling to Canada just to play video games for fun, but I loved it. The time was super enjoyable, and it was so exciting to meet your teammates irl.
After lan I kept playing with eHostage, but we eventually broke up and I played with RTB for like 4-5 months. My grades were fine, I got like a 3.8 GPA Sophomore year.
I played only competitive now, but I was consistently placing third and fourth, never actually winning anything. There was also a period of time where I was casting tournaments, but that didn't last very long. Near the end of Junior year I was a top player (playing in teams like alphafive and xfamousx's prodigy team), and my grades were really good, all was well.
Come senior year (I just graduated this week), and I'm making money off of esl cups. It was crazy that I would be seeing hundreds of dollars in paypal every few months.
Obviously during senior year there was the whole college 'thing'. I knew I wanted to do something computer related since I spend so much time on them, but I had no idea where I wanted to go. Then pretty much out of no where I applied to this university in Chicago for a gaming scholarship. They were the first in the nation to offer eSports scholarships and people like Adrian Ma were attending it, so I figured there was no way I'd be accepted seeing as I never really even played league. I ended up actually receiving the lowest tier of the scholarship and considered attending that university. I got a lot better at league and a month later they bumped me up to being on their 'sub' team, which basically doubled the scholarship money. Seeing as my family isn't exactly 'wealthy' and I wasn't some 4.0 student who played three different sports, I committed to this university thinking this was the most financial aid I could get (40%). After being committed to the school I was offered a few different academic scholarships and loans and what-not, and eventually learned that if I raised my ACT by one point, I could get quite a bit of money. Naturally, I retook the ACT. I ended up raising it by three points, and getting a full ride to a 40k a year private school in my hometown, all because of CF. I also spent all of Senior year playing for Carbon, and being basically one of the top 5 players NA. That was a total blast, being able to compete at the highest level of play online cf has to offer, as well as having a lot of fun playing with people I really enjoy. I move in in August, and have made like three grand off CF. -
It is all fun and games, everyone has time to "day dream" about Crossfire or whatever game they are playing when they are young and coming home after middle school/high school. Come college/other responsibilities, there are many more things to think about and individuals grow up.
One thing that gaming made me realize is that it makes many individuals that do not play competitive sports or compete in such more social and confident in their interactions with others.
It all comes from perspective like many things but, Crossfire can be a joke to 1 person or a life saving game to another. In the end, do not regret the time you guys spent playing Crossfire. I am sure it was fun but nothing can be done to change the time you spent playing the game. -
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i thought this would be necessary... i had it in my files, I've always wanted to use it..
not trying to be offensive...
it's not offensive it's not often that people have the chance or even take the opportunity to let show the human side of the 2D online characters everyone sees every dayoh boy let's try this
I started out playing in early 2009, which was 6th grade for me iirc. An Asian friend of mine introduced it to me at a party at his house one night, and I actually didn't quite like the idea of PC games. I was an xbox360/ps2 player at the time, and loved games like CoD. That summer my xbox broke, and I googled free online games like CoD. I came across a CF youtube video, and remembered it from when I tried it at my friend's house. I downloaded it, and started my CF life.
Initially, I would only play around an hour or so a day of TDM, switching off every 3rd death with my irl friend haha. Obviously I was a f2p player seeing as I was like 13, but I had a ton of fun playing with just an M4 lol. A year or so passes by, and I start playing Ghost Mode. I also start playing this game around 5 hours a day, because I was having so much fun. I played with IRL friends, and also made genuine friends with the people in my clans and what not. Hell, I even still talk to some of them today. In GM, My IRL friends and I led a pretty successful clan, which was very fun.
Then starts 7th grade, along with a lovely Foreign Language class. I started to do really awful in it, seeing as all I would do is think about CF. I ended up getting a D in Spanish, and even though I had A's in all my other classes, my parents flipped out and wouldn't let me play games until my grade was up. I never got it up that year, so I spent the whole year playing CF on my laptop whenever my parents weren't home. I didn't play too much that summer because I was used to only being able to get in ~30 minutes a day, but I still played quite a bit. I got pretty good at GM, and was one of the few people in Pan[TH]erS (Like the Hammertime of GM at that point in time). This was the high-point of having fun in cf for me. People would ask me daily for GM 1v1s and tryouts because they thought I was so good, and I loved it. All this time I had only been playing on a 20fps laptop as well, haha.
One of my IRL friends then convinced me to start playing SnD clan wars that summer, and we had a lot of fun making/joining clans and doing that. Then came along Freshman year, and I started to play SnD CF a lot more. I was getting up hours before school started (my parents were always gone in the early mornings) just to play cf. Because I didn't have a lot of time after school (I was a wrestler and had 3 hour practices 6 days a week), I would not do any homework/studying when I got home, and just play CF with friends. my grades suffered, and my gpa that year tanked to a 2.0
Sophomore year of highschool comes along, and it was pretty easy. I had a lot of study halls, so I did my homework then and just played CF when I got home. I stopped waking up early to play games, but would still spend all my free time after school to play. My IRL friends moved on from CF to League of Legends, but I kept playing CF. I started playing competitive this year by stumbling across a team for wcg. We placed fourth and got invited to the nationals lan in NYC, but my teammates couldn't pay their way to the lan. I didn't really care, I just loved competing. Come 6 months of playing with snitchez/chriss/rain/hyska/hose/hwg boys, the FG LAN was announced. I really wanted to play at this and do well, so I started trying to get better at CF. I watched as old scrim/match videos as I could find to try and get better. I developed quite the gamesense, and made a team with Reid/x0tek for the FG LAN. At this time, we picked up xfam0usx and wizdom, and wanted to get 15oL to go to the lan with us. Famous ended up not being able to go and reid disappeared like two weeks before the lan, so I joined eHostage ~7 days before FG LAN. We went to Toronto together, and it was amazing. Everyone in my family thought I was crazy traveling to Canada just to play video games for fun, but I loved it. The time was super enjoyable, and it was so exciting to meet your teammates irl.
After lan I kept playing with eHostage, but we eventually broke up and I played with RTB for like 4-5 months. My grades were fine, I got like a 3.8 GPA Sophomore year.
I played only competitive now, but I was consistently placing third and fourth, never actually winning anything. There was also a period of time where I was casting tournaments, but that didn't last very long. Near the end of Junior year I was a top player (playing in teams like alphafive and xfamousx's prodigy team), and my grades were really good, all was well.
Come senior year (I just graduated this week), and I'm making money off of esl cups. It was crazy that I would be seeing hundreds of dollars in paypal every few months.
Obviously during senior year there was the whole college 'thing'. I knew I wanted to do something computer related since I spend so much time on them, but I had no idea where I wanted to go. Then pretty much out of no where I applied to this university in Chicago for a gaming scholarship. They were the first in the nation to offer eSports scholarships and people like Adrian Ma were attending it, so I figured there was no way I'd be accepted seeing as I never really even played league. I ended up actually receiving the lowest tier of the scholarship and considered attending that university. I got a lot better at league and a month later they bumped me up to being on their 'sub' team, which basically doubled the scholarship money. Seeing as my family isn't exactly 'wealthy' and I wasn't some 4.0 student who played three different sports, I committed to this university thinking this was the most financial aid I could get (40%). After being committed to the school I was offered a few different academic scholarships and loans and what-not, and eventually learned that if I raised my ACT by one point, I could get quite a bit of money. Naturally, I retook the ACT. I ended up raising it by three points, and getting a full ride to a 40k a year private school in my hometown, all because of CF. I also spent all of Senior year playing for Carbon, and being basically one of the top 5 players NA. That was a total blast, being able to compete at the highest level of play online cf has to offer, as well as having a lot of fun playing with people I really enjoy. I move in in August, and have made like three grand off CF.
I'm really happy to know that it worked out for you- I didn't even realized you could get scholarships for competitive gaming. I also keep in touch with some of my old clan members from 2011. I'm actually planning on visiting them in europe within the next 2 years.ISnipeFast- wrote: »It all comes from perspective like many things but, Crossfire can be a joke to 1 person or a life saving game to another. In the end, do not regret the time you guys spent playing Crossfire. I am sure it was fun but nothing can be done to change the time you spent playing the game.
I don't regret it- I don't think I would be as sure about what I want in life if I hadn't played. -
freshman year i was a wanna be lifting faag known for trolling forums and a wanna be tastylimes
soph year- started lifting strictly and tanning. Getting body ready for a after life of raving and being a sick ****
jr yr- drugs vaagina and fun
senior- same bs -
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started playing when I was like 14-15 years old
> clicked an ad on youtube for crossfire
> joined
> met iiTwAsLuck & DAC1337 (some god awful noob name at first though..)
> started playing scrims
> played WOGL
> decided to become WOGL staff
> secretly hated Bobby with a F***ING PASSION. :rolleyes:
> met Bloodyfire, cute guy, sucks at portal
> got fired from WOGL for making a slight joke about mickeyes
> meet FGJon, help with Frost Gaming
> reunite with Slaya (i always thought he hated me secretly. but he cute. > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFzpRD2i6AE
)
> 2 years later
> get arrested
> come back
> write this
> heading across the country
l8ter -
started playing when I was like 14-15 years old
> clicked an ad on youtube for crossfire
> joined
> met iiTwAsLuck & DAC1337 (some god awful noob name at first though..)
> started playing scrims
> played WOGL
> decided to become WOGL staff
> secretly hated Bobby with a F***ING PASSION. :rolleyes:
> met Bloodyfire, cute guy, sucks at portal
> got fired from WOGL for making a slight joke about mickeyes
> meet FGJon, help with Frost Gaming
> reunite with Slaya (i always thought he hated me secretly. but he cute. > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFzpRD2i6AE)
> 2 years later
> get arrested
> come back
> write this
> heading across the country
l8ter
What is your ign? Chase? -
beeb2001beeb
beeb2001beebblack0uttttt wrote: »okay, so i saw a thread early this week about life stories, good to see some old pro's in the NA scene are successful, or are on the right track. it's all good everyone is this, and evereyone is that.. but i want to hear how everyone got there, struggles they had to endure.. ect ect... being one of the few gamers i know, i'm curious as to what other people had to go through.
so here it is, il start off pre highschool. i'm playing at the highest, absolute highest level of hockey i could possibly play, in 3-5 years, i could be drafted to the CHL(ohl, whl, qmjhl) but then highschool hit, and weirldly enough, i started playing crossfire. i became obsessed with it, and through my years of grade 9-11, i did not drink. i would ditch my friends to play video games.. i smoked a lot of weed and was towards being an outcast. i pushed away many people to play video games and smoke weed.
here i am, a completely capable kid, throwing it all away for video games and smoking dope. mind you, as anyone who was half popular in highschool realizes this is a time of "drinking" but not for me.. everFrag (original) was coming in full swing around grade 11, me and snipes would skip school and play with 3 players who were homeschooled(coda, torispelling and 2cute) it was rather weird. i enjoyed spending 14 hours a day talking with these guys then socializing with my real friend.
okay, grade 12 hits, i start drinking on the weekends with friends i've had since i was in preschool(same neighborhood, you know how it goes) this whole stage completly changes me. long story short, i cant smoke pot because it gives me terrible anxiety now, but i'm drinking!!!! so what's the big deal right? i skip out on graduation and prom (obviously went to prom party though nerds)
getting out of highschool was awesome, i got a summer job as a labourer with a decoratice concrete company, i gain 20 pounds, i'm not fat, but i'm solid from all the work(anyone who has worked concrete would understand) but here is where my life goes in to a downward spiral. (thought my life was ****ed above^^? think again) here i am, drinking 6-8 beer a night, as an 18 year old. ok whatever, but i'm doing it by myself while gaming.. then morning drinking came along. and i picked up smoking. summer out of highschool was terrible for me... i would shake if i didnt drink, couldnt concentrate. then an opportunity came along.. i got accepted to college to take plumbing/pipefitting!!!!!
best year of my life, college. 16 guys, same interests, 1 class. talk about a ****ing riot, just a bunch of hicks who wanted to drink beer, go mudding, and live life on the edge. picked up a little cocaine habit that lasted only a couple months thankfully.. i found a girlfriend, we ended up dating for 2 and a half years
after college i couldnt find a plumbing job so i went back to concrete, same company picked up a contract in the local potash mine, you dont know miserable when you're working 12-14 hour days UNDERGROUND and dont see the sun for 13 days.
this all ultimately led up to me and my girlfriend splitting up, i'm only mentioning this now, but when i started dating this girlfriend i developed serious anxiety problems, which i was medicated for. (currently off them)
worked at potash mine for the summer, spent this winter doing odd jobs just to get by, i'm currently working for one of the biggest oil refinerys in north america doing exterior maintenance, barley drinking because i cant stand socializing with more then 1 person at a time.
if you read, id like some input and maybe a little bit about yourselves? i'd enjoy seeing how competitive gaming affected other people, as i know i pushed away A LOT of people in the process.
thanks guys, matt -
Oh goodie
Well, i was about 13 years old, and i came across cf as an ad on youtube, and i told my cousin to download it seeing that i didnt have a pc that could run it. Well, he got hooked on it and no lifed the shiit outta that game for about 3 years haha. WEll, after a year, i got a laptop. First thing to be installed on that laptop was cf, and i still have it. After i got my laptop, my cousin started to hit the gym and told me about how much better it is to do something productive and how im just wasting my time. Well, i kept playing cf. I was pretty fat for a 7th grader. My dream has always been to play soccer as a pro, but i would just go to my team's soccer games and just waste time. I wouldn't attend any practices what so ever. It felt like it wasn't something I wanted to do. 8th grade came and it was practically the same. I became more active, joined a new soccer team, never missed practice but still no lifed cf when i had the chance. At the end of my 8th grade year, a couple of friends wanted to sign up for planet fitness and workout during the summer. I was the only one to sign up for the gym and workout. That whole summer i quit cf and played it 2 times in total (lololol). I lost about 20 pounds and I had a huge growth spurt. I was about 5'10 and 170 lbs. At the end of summer i was 6'1 and 150 lbs. Freshman year came, and it was soccer tryouts for my highschool team, and i completely forgot how to kick a ball. I was so focused on the gym that i never played soccer the summer. I ended up not playing for the school team beacuse of a highschool application mixup that landed me in another school. Sophmore year comes, and im back at the school i was frist at (thank god) I got really hooked on the gym. I would work really hard and practice soccer when ever I could. I decided that I wanted to play for a better team than the team i was already on. I went on trials for about a month and made the team. That reallllly changed me. Playing for an academy team against the likes of new york redbulls (i didnt play agianst them). Point being, the practices were hardcore. SUmmer time came and i went to europe for about a month and a half and trained 5x a day with the junior team of the first team of my city which played in the first league. I ended up playing with the junior team until i came back to the states. When i came back, i had went from 170lbs to about 180, which surprised me because i worked very hard only to find out i gained weight. I came back to the states, i started playing for my team. I didn't have any confidence at all when it was game time. The season passed, and I only scored one goal. Now, this team is broken up with players leaving. I was just being wasted on the bench. My coach didn't like me as much as the other players and didn't play me in my regular position, when he played me it wasnt where i desired, and where i was most useful. An Italian coach thatn coached the youth team of Ac Milan in Italy (top team in Italy) started playing me where i belonged. I was on fire. My confidence was through the roof and i was playing great. Over time I gained a shiiiit load of confidence and im going back to europe for about 2 months where ill be training 5x a week and 2x a week at the gym. I haven't been hitting the gym as much because i have been playing a lotttttttttt. I did become more ripped through dieting and some gym work, but my core strength is better than 99% of the kids my age or even older than me (16-18 years old) I came a longg way as a player. Training about 4x a day, and games on weekends. My dream of playing pro in Europe is so reachable at this point with the work ethic and talent I have. Now im about 6'3 and 170 lbs. Without a doubt, handsdown, the strongest 16 year old in the city when it comes to soccer and being strong on the ball. Yet to face anyone stronger than me. Pretty fast for my height and yea. Thats it
Moral of the Story: Cf led me to realize that there are other things in my life I should be focused on, and not Cf. -
zillaaaaaa wrote: »freshman year i was a wanna be lifting faag known for trolling forums and a wanna be tastylimes
soph year- started lifting strictly and tanning. Getting body ready for a after life of raving and being a sick ****
jr yr- drugs vaagina and fun
senior- same bs
lmfaoooo. Sick kun.t . Did irman persuade u into lifting?
Then I found out about CFNA/UK by people from the CFRU chat 
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