Different Perspectives
I've had a lot of time to think about my life, how it affects others, and how others affect my life.
I've thought about when and where certain things could have happened or did happen that could have or did change my life.
Then I started to think of life as a whole. Not in a natural way, not in a way of living, but as practical, 2 dimensional perspective.
I have come down to the thought process of life as a grid. As people's interactions with one another being an intersecting line in that grid.
An exponentially growing and complex grid that cannot be redone or undone in any way.
A week ago, I was contemplating suicide. Was close to the end for me, then I started to think of all the people that I've been touched by, mentally and emotionally.
I am one line in this grid, that just happened to pass through their's. And as I live on, my line grows, being able to grow into life's grid and be a part of other people.
Just thinking out loud.
I've thought about when and where certain things could have happened or did happen that could have or did change my life.
Then I started to think of life as a whole. Not in a natural way, not in a way of living, but as practical, 2 dimensional perspective.
I have come down to the thought process of life as a grid. As people's interactions with one another being an intersecting line in that grid.
An exponentially growing and complex grid that cannot be redone or undone in any way.
A week ago, I was contemplating suicide. Was close to the end for me, then I started to think of all the people that I've been touched by, mentally and emotionally.
I am one line in this grid, that just happened to pass through their's. And as I live on, my line grows, being able to grow into life's grid and be a part of other people.
Just thinking out loud.
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Can't sleep.
New thought.
The propaganda flowing through most countries on disapproval of the beliefs and whole cultures of different nations has me puzzled.
What does this pessimistic impression do for the bettering of the country? A population of a country hating another only from what they've been told or what has been portrayed in certain media outlets. What good does this do?
In America it makes sense. Fear is profit. But in countries like Isreal and Uzbekistan, the hate for other religions or nationalities comes from only what people have been told or see inside of their perplexing little bubble.
There is no gain being made here, there is no budge, and neither end of most these conflicts has no real answer/origin.
I'm not thinking as an American. I'm thinking as a human and a citizen of this planet. -
I'm on to thinking about the two variations of 12 cylinder engines in mass use today.
The V12, and W12.
Even though having lower compression rates and displacement, the V12 seems to produce more horsepower per liter than the W12.
On an upside for the W12, the massive torque and power-to-weight ratio make it an all around better engine.
Being in layman's terms, two lateral v6's, the split cam-shaft creates less stress on the pistons, and in-turn, less lag between compression and ignition per cylinder.
This is a big disadvantage of the v12, which, in most variations, use Variable Valve Timing to keep the compression even in all cylinders at appropriate times.
If I have to decide between an Aston Martin DB9 and a VW Scirocco GT 24 W12, I'd take the Hatch back.
Again, thinking out loud for god knows what reason. 3:17 AM. -
You tell me that I don't care. You make me think that I don't try. So I try, but what happens? It just makes me feel as if you push me further away.
Before we hooked up, I didn't think anything could go wrong, I thought this would be perfect.
But now I see flaws, and they grow by the day. I try to cope with them, but it's hard.
It hurts to know you think I don't care. I tell you these things that I would never say to anyone else, I want to be with you, I really do, but you seem to push me away. How is that my fault?
Venting. 3:31 AM. -
-What's the speed of dark?
-Why do they sterilize the needles for lethal injections?'
-If a word is misspelled in the dictionary, is it misspelled?
-And if it is misspelled, how would we know?
-Can you get cornered in a round room?
-If a fork were made of gold would it still be considered silverware?
-Why, with over 3/4 of our planet covered by water, don't we call it 'ocean' instead of Earth?
-If it's zero degrees outside today and it's supposed to be twice as cold tomorrow, how cold is it going to be?
-If you are in a vehicle going the speed of light, what would happen if you turned on your headlights?
-Why are they called apartments when they're all together? -
To get people thinking about the ordinary in extraordinary ways. To think outside of the box (It's a cliche but it works).Congrats, youve made me totally confused and I can't comprehend my mind to this. What was the point of this thread?
It's a thread to post your complex, perplexing thoughts that are useless anywhere else. -
-What's the speed of dark?
-Why do they sterilize the needles for lethal injections?'
-If a word is misspelled in the dictionary, is it misspelled?
-And if it is misspelled, how would we know?
-Can you get cornered in a round room?
-If a fork were made of gold would it still be considered silverware?
-Why, with over 3/4 of our planet covered by water, don't we call it 'ocean' instead of Earth?
-If it's zero degrees outside today and it's supposed to be twice as cold tomorrow, how cold is it going to be?
-If you are in a vehicle going the speed of light, what would happen if you turned on your headlights?
-Why are they called apartments when they're all together?
A vehicle cannot go at the same speed as light -
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The feelings of intense emotional pain with the knowledge of not physically being able to be there is creating a war within myself holding me back from certain regret. Melancholy is one way to describe it.
On the other side of this one-person battlefield is love's true thwart to keep me here and away from that deceptive step toward doom. I have no where to go. I am the only one who can fight this war, and the only one who can end it.
You keep me here, thinking to myself "why?", and I give myself no answer. No true, definite, simple answer to make this stop, to make it go away. -
The feelings of intense emotional pain with the knowledge of not physically being able to be there is creating a war within myself holding me back from certain regret. Melancholy is one way to describe it.
On the other side of this one-person battlefield is love's true thwart to keep me here and away from that deceptive step toward doom. I have no where to go. I am the only one who can fight this war, and the only one who can end it.
You keep me here, thinking to myself "why?", and I give myself no answer. No true, definite, simple answer to make this stop, to make it go away.
WOW i would really sit 1 day with u and just talk -
For once in my life, things might be going slightly the way I've wanted them to.
I'm failing school, license suspended, rejected by most friends for mistakes I've made. This combined with frivolous efforts to spawn a more established, settled flow of optimistic creationism for my future has the entire world fighting back at me. But I'm not phased by it.
The passion for what could rightfully end me in cynical oblivion has me jumping for joy, and in a perfect state of emotional euphoria.
I've never felt more alive, I've never wanted to be more alive then at this moment. As long as you are here, nothing can go wrong for me.
1:24 AM, can't think straight. -
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No where near emo. I'm not aloud to express my thoughts?
You can't possibly judge me for openly recording my emotions and ideas.
You are a perfect example of the greater majority asking for everyone to repress emotions.
If you don't care, don't bother being here. -
No where near emo. I'm not aloud to express my thoughts?
You can't possibly judge me for openly recording my emotions and ideas.
You are a perfect example of the greater majority asking for everyone to repress emotions.
If you don't care, don't bother being here.
Sorry just seemed like a cute pic...your thoughts are actually quite amazing..sry if I offended you
Angel -
I get the feeling that you are ashamed and embarrassed of who I am and what I've done.
My checkered past and vividly disappointing choices are not something I'm proud of, but for you to use them as something keeping us apart is extremely depressing.
Words can't begin to describe how emotionally shattered I am. My heart isn't your toy, and after all you've said to me, the emotions you expressed towards me, doesn't seem real anymore.
I want to let go.
9:36, feeling like anheroing. -
Can't sleep.
New thought.
The propaganda flowing through most countries on disapproval of the beliefs and whole cultures of different nations has me puzzled.
What does this pessimistic impression do for the bettering of the country? A population of a country hating another only from what they've been told or what has been portrayed in certain media outlets. What good does this do?
In America it makes sense. Fear is profit. But in countries like Isreal and Uzbekistan, the hate for other religions or nationalities comes from only what people have been told or see inside of their perplexing little bubble.
There is no gain being made here, there is no budge, and neither end of most these conflicts has no real answer/origin.
I'm not thinking as an American. I'm thinking as a human and a citizen of this planet.
One small thought on this input is that a certain group are sole minded in this to divide and conquer the world.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kX0sLFXR0Q&feature=related
Thinking too much can get your head blown off!
Be Afraid, be very Afraid! -
If it makes you feel any better Brad, I think you're alright.I get the feeling that you are ashamed and embarrassed of who I am and what I've done.
My checkered past and vividly disappointing choices are not something I'm proud of, but for you to use them as something keeping us apart is extremely depressing.
Words can't begin to describe how emotionally shattered I am. My heart isn't your toy, and after all you've said to me, the emotions you expressed towards me, doesn't seem real anymore.
I want to let go.
9:36, feeling like anheroing.
Life's too short to waste minutes judging people over the internet. As an aside, here's a joke to lighten your day:
An 85-year-old man visits his doctor to get a spurm count. The geezer's given a jar and told to bring back a sample. The next day he returns to the doctor's office with an empty jar.
"What happened?" says the doc.
"Well," the old man starts, "I asked my wife for help. She tried with her right hand, then her left, nothing. Then she tried her mouth, first with the teeth in, then with the teeth out, still nothing. We even called in Arlene, the lady next door, but still nothing."
The doctor bursts out, "You asked your neighbor?"
"Yep. No matter what we tried, we couldn't get that damn jar open.
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What's the speed of dark?
Opposite from speed of light.
-If a word is misspelled in the dictionary, is it misspelled?
Yes, dictionaries are not our sources of knowledge.
-And if it is misspelled, how would we know?
Old, paper books.
-Why, with over 3/4 of our planet covered by water, don't we call it 'ocean' instead of Earth?
Under oceans is still a earth.
-If it's zero degrees outside today and it's supposed to be twice as cold tomorrow, how cold is it going to be?
Zero, 'cuz 0*2=0....you cannot mix logic and abstract.
-If you are in a vehicle going the speed of light, what would happen if you turned on your headlights?
Nothing, photons cannot travel faster than their maximum speed(speed of light).
Don't commit suicide! This world is too beautiful. -
A Memory?
A thought to dwell on, a memory of times gone and times to come that are what maketh life?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocDlOD1Hw9k
Cos I believe we all are Fkin Perfect too!
And...Tuxedo_Mask wrote: »If it makes you feel any better Brad, I think you're alright.
Life's too short to waste minutes judging people over the internet. As an aside, here's a joke to lighten your day:
An 85-year-old man visits his doctor to get a spurm count. The geezer's given a jar and told to bring back a sample. The next day he returns to the doctor's office with an empty jar.
"What happened?" says the doc.
"Well," the old man starts, "I asked my wife for help. She tried with her right hand, then her left, nothing. Then she tried her mouth, first with the teeth in, then with the teeth out, still nothing. We even called in Arlene, the lady next door, but still nothing."
The doctor bursts out, "You asked your neighbor?"
"Yep. No matter what we tried, we couldn't get that damn jar open.
You made me smile:)
To my Man! You are more than worthy of my attention, I like your inquisitive mind. To give it away now would be a cardinal sin and also a loss to us all.
I ask your further input sir. -
-What's the speed of dark?
-Why do they sterilize the needles for lethal injections?'
-If a word is misspelled in the dictionary, is it misspelled?
-And if it is misspelled, how would we know?
-Can you get cornered in a round room?
-If a fork were made of gold would it still be considered silverware?
-Why, with over 3/4 of our planet covered by water, don't we call it 'ocean' instead of Earth?
-If it's zero degrees outside today and it's supposed to be twice as cold tomorrow, how cold is it going to be?
-If you are in a vehicle going the speed of light, what would happen if you turned on your headlights?
-Why are they called apartments when they're all together?
WOW ... You gave me a lot to think about o.O -
o_o...DUKEofYORK wrote: »A thought to dwell on, a memory of times gone and times to come that are what maketh life?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocDlOD1Hw9k
Cos I believe we all are Fkin Perfect too!
And...
You made me smile:)
To my Man! You are more than worthy of my attention, I like your inquisitive mind. To give it away now would be a cardinal sin and also a loss to us all.
I ask your further input sir.
I always got the impression that you didn't like me much >.>
Anywho, life is all about passing smiles around! I say live with the sole purpose of being happy and making those around smile; be happy for the little time we are given to enjoy the presence of those we care about! -
Reality?Tuxedo_Mask wrote: »o_o...
I always got the impression that you didn't like me much >.>
Anywho, life is all about passing smiles around! I say live with the sole purpose of being happy and making those around smile; be happy for the little time we are given to enjoy the presence of those we care about!
All I feel of yourself is your soul, be it by input or more. I fail to see why this should make you think I dislike you, perhaps because we dis-agreed on a minor topic? Come sir and rise above the thought that an arguement is a taking of sides and a making of enemies. An arguement is nessecary to bring both sides of the dispute out into the open, where the truth of both sides can be addressed. I often play "Devils Advocate" for that very reason, so never allow this to enter your life as a personal war. Neither on this forum or the world-wide stage my friend:)
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