Time to be honest.
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Man it just continues don't know whats wrong with me.A couple of weeks ago was playing ok.Now just can't relax.External pressure.I just lock up.My hands feel like they are not part of my body.
Kind of a vicious circle.Playing crossfire to get away from the reality of whats going wrong and pressure in the real world.But its difficult to get in the zone when negative thoughts stay constantly in the background.
The fear of failure locks me up looking at scores descending into embarassment.All of the forumers i have played with are decent people who don't ridicule my poor displays.
Maybe one day everything clicks back into place.Roll on february the 7th.
I am not sure why i am sharing this with people.Maybe its because i feel comfortable in the anonimity of the forums and people not knowing the face behind the words.
For those who are interested at the moment i am also going through a court battle against my ex to fight for the fathers rights of seeing my daughter more regularly.These proceedings in a country foreign to me take their toll.
So thats my latest installment to those who are interested.At moment not sure what else to say except thanks for reading.Feels kind of liberating to get that off my chest.
Troll if you wish its the least of my worries.
Only after you've lost everything are you free to do anything. -
UKDissident wrote: »Here is a good tip:
Don't concentrate on doing good (that's when your perform worse), just relax and kill for fun then you will do better.
After my first (and only) clan disbanded, I never joined another one because I found out that having to prove something to somebody was hurting my performance =p
To the OP: you could try to stop scrimming for a while without leaving your clan, I'm sure they'd understand. -
After my first (and only) clan disbanded, I never joined another one because I found out that having to prove something to somebody was hurting my performance =p
To the OP: you could try to stop scrimming for a while without leaving your clan, I'm sure they'd understand.
I guess the one of the reasons is that its a big step up to do scrims.I found my enjoyment from crossfire ranking up playing mainly MM and occasionally td egypt and ship.Have never played ClanWars,GM,Also rarely s&d.I realise than when i am at my very best i an only an average player
Before i had the all the exp items100%(mainly from ZP earned from surveys).So maybe it accelerated my rank too fast
Sometimes think would be better not to have the 2nd lt rank.Because with that come expectations that somebody should be good player at that level.
Anyway will carry on plugging away and try to relax.I have to say.I enjoy the banter in forumers clan.I think its good clan to be in.As their main objective is just to have fun.That takes the pressure away a bit. -
Anyway will carry on plugging away and try to relax.I have to say.I enjoy the banter in forumers clan.I think its good clan to be in.As their main objective is just to have fun.That takes the pressure away a bit.
and may it forever be that way
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