sorry. it's complicated. i have to get it off my chest.

it's a really long story. i can't tell it to anyone in person, because it's way too complicated and ugh.

theres this girl. we go to the same church, its a small church, and we see eachother for 3 hrs every sunday.

she admitted she liked me, so she started texting me everyday 24/7 in February. she was cute, so i talked to her and we were texting/calling everyday until june

i was really stressed out and i was being a dbag and stuff because of finals+schools. i ignored her for 3 days and she stopped texting.

i realized i really liked this girl. but i blew her off.

i can't tell her this though, you see, we go to the same church, and its small, so if we expose ourself as gf/bf, it would be awkward.

so suddenly, we stopped texting eachother, and ugh.

we went to michigan adventures yesterday (amusement park) and we were cool and all that.

the ride back took 3 hrs, and we were in the back car, and she slept on my arm.

the thing is, i saw her today, and it was back to the normal not talk to eachother anymore.

i'm really glad if some of you guys read this. i just had to get it off my chest, and no one would understand it if i verbally said it.

i'm not sure what to do either.

i don't want to be desperate and text her.

i don't care if you troll me.

gah.
fml.